How To Hide Your Biggest Weakness

You know how in an interview, they ask you to talk about your greatest weakness. If I had to do an interview right now, I’m not sure how I would answer that question. Not because I don’t know what it is but I wouldn’t want to admit my weakness to a stranger. But we’re friends so I’ll tell you: I get angry, really angry, sometimes. There are people who just push my buttons. Now I know the techniques to quell the anger – count to ten, inhale and slowly exhale, imagine being in a calm environment – but when has anger ever given you the opportunity to slow down and find a better way to react? I know the things that trigger my anger and I do my best to avoid them. I don’t like to see people I care about being taken advantage of. I don’t like when people waste my time. But most of all, I don’t like to be misrepresented. That’s the thing that angers me the most. And when it’s done repeatedly, I find myself trying to run away. 
I got angry yesterday. I’m not happy with how I handled it. I threw some things and then I felt angry that I wasn’t more responsible about my reactions so I cried about my inability to be more emotionally intelligent. But most of all, I think I was sad that people in my life don’t know me well enough or maybe don’t care enough to not do the things that push me into a dark place. Am I being immature in that reasoning? It’s not that I am blaming someone else or looking to someone to provide me with the ideal environment, but is it unreasonable to expect that your friends and family would treat you well? 
I don’t usually go down this road and follow these negative thoughts so forgive me for my selfish indulgence. When I take some time to read and meditate and process the better way to handle negative situations, I might have to come back and delete this post. Until then, though, thanks to Amanda for allowing me to ramble in her Thinking Out Loud link-up. 
 
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  1. I think we’re all entitled to these kinds of set-backs. The only advice I have is this: Don’t expect a tiger to be anything but a tiger. It’s something a therapist told me once, about dealing with difficult people – especially the ones that we are closest to.
    I think it’s normal to have expectations of people, but sometimes we need to evaluate our expectations and question if someone is capable of it or not – for example, I’m not going to expect Charlie Manson to be anything but a deranged psychopath – although that isn’t my expectation for people, in general.

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    1. Run Wright says:

      Thanks for the comment, T. I think the hardest part is when we forget that other people have weaknesses too and we expect them to conquer those on our timeline.

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      1. I literally, just read a post that is interesting and might offer even more insight:

        https://semanticsstation.wordpress.com/2017/05/04/stop-fighting-start-loving/

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  2. Joey says:

    Ooooooh lady, this one hits home. Something many people don’t know about me (unless they’re in my close, intimate circle) is that I have a horrible temper and get horrifically angry pretty easily. You know the kind of anger that sits in your gut and actually makes your head hurt? Yeah, that kind. “but when has anger ever given you the opportunity to slow down and find a better way to react?” GIRL. THIS. I’m sorry you’re unhappy with how you reacted in the moment, but if its any consolation, you’re not alone in this struggle.

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    1. Run Wright says:

      Thanks so much for your comment, Joey. It helps to know I’m not the only one who’s dealt with this.

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